Ayah (2)

I have meant to write about dad a few days ago, but this morning -so I have a reason to procrastinate- I finally did it.

I miss my dad. But I’m not the kind of daughter who says, “I miss you, dad” like literally. It just no and ew. My dad also not the kind of father who says, “I miss you”, but sometimes he says he loves me and calls me ‘sweety’, I’m just ugh. But I do miss him. We do miss each other but we never say it. And writing about dad like this is one of my coping mechanisms.

Oh, and he doesn’t know that I have blogs and I wrote about him sometimes, so I feel safe. (Bukan) anak durhaka. Mom does know I have a blog, but I don’t think she reads it because she is not good at social media. My sister and my brother aware that I write here, but I think they won’t bother to read. (But if you guys read this, don’t tell mom and dad, or I will kill you *kidding).

No, I’m not kidding.

(kidding)

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Ayah

Kalau ingat-ingat sempro (seminar proposal), aku jadi senyum-senyum sendiri. Teman-teman mengira aku ingin skripsi cepat selesai karena ingin cepat nikah. Aku senyumin aja. Mau nikah dengan siapa coba? What a ridiculous thought~ Actually daddy is one of the reason why I came this far. (Alah, padahal belum semhas belum apa-apa lo). Dan beliau akhir-akhir ini, setiap hari, selalu bertanya, “Kapan ambil data penelitian? Kapan ambil data penelitian?” Berulang-ulang kali padahal sudah aku jelaskan aku harus revisi dulu setelah sempro ini. Gimana aku ga semangat? :3

Seminggu sebelum sempro, aku cerita ayah bahwa aku akan sempro hari Selasa minggu depannya. “Alhamdulillah.” kata ayah dengan tenangnya padahal aku grogi banget. Aku cerita mama, mama juga tenang-tenang saja menangapinya karena dulu skripsinya juga ngga ada sempro-semproan. Dan waktu itu, ketika aku sedang sempro, ayah sedang menguji skripsi. Nanti suatu ketika aku ingin juga berada dalam posisi ayah.

Kemudian alhamdulillah sempro berjalan dengan lancar, tapi kali ini aku tidak ingin bercerita tentang sempro atau semua hal tentang skripsi. Tulisan ini tentang ayah.

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