At the beginning, I’m very sorry for my English native speaker follower because this year I tend to writes in Bahasa Indonesia. Hahaha. The last time I wrote in English was on May. It was a poem named a heart on the boots, then another poem on April named afraid, which is about me, because sometimes I’m afraid of little things and I felt so small in this world. Who are you, who am I, who we are? on March, when I felt like nobody knows me. And about a friend here.
Sometimes when I sad, angry, lonely, or confused, I tend to write poems. I don’t care whether it is a good or a bad poem or whether people gonna like it or not, as long as I can drain my feelings, I don’t care. 😀
And the interesting one is this: 18/03/15, I wasn’t a poem, but it was a diary when I had to be a volunteer of deaf person and apparently she was very annoying. However, I forgot who was it! XD.
There are still some of them, but it was just my ordinary diary.
So, actually I was eluded to write in English because of two things:
First, I lost of my confidence in writing in English and the problem is of course the grammar. You can found out there are so many errors in my sentences. I got C+ on my structure course in the first semester (Yes, and I admit it). I want to retake it, but I’m not allowed. The minimum score if you want to retake the course is C. It was so ridiculous. I don’t care about the score, I just want to improve my awry grammar. Thus, I decided to learn by myself from google (of course! ;)), but the information was random. This page said A, and then that page said B, and so on. I need teacher and someone to talk in English.
However, I got .. no one. Seeing that my friends are also learners too and they can’t give a certainty and only few of them that want to practice in English through speaking. The rest said, we were put on airs.
I’m not giving up, but I just not confident enough.
Second. It was in the class. The teacher ask us what is difference of simple past tense and simple perfect tense. It was easy question, because I read about it the night before. However, nobody raise their hands.
In order that, I think one way to respect out teacher is to pay his/her attention and answer his/her question, I said that simple past tense is deal with a finish action with a finished time word like last week, last month, yesterday, etc, but simple perfect is deal with unfinished time. Yet, the teacher has her own interpretation and said that I was wrong, although it was implied.
And I lost my confidence again.
It was 1:00 AM, but I have to get up at 2.30 AM, because I have a promise to dad that I have to wake him up at 2.30 AM. In order that, I decided to not to sleep and keep writing. I think I would be OK, besides It is so cold here, still having cough like 3 weeks, and still allergic to
stupid shrimp and egg. I will be a vegetarian for a little while. and I’m happy! 😀